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The First Anniversary

I survived today. The first anniversary since being split up.

Better yet, I didn't miss him at all today.
Today was my day off.
I took my kids shopping. I bought a new outfit for myself and took them out to lunch.

I paid off a credit card.

I have been in debt since I was old enough to apply for a credit card application.
During my marriage it only got worse.
I have been behind on everything since I quit working to stay at home with the kids over two years ago.
Every day was a struggle and money was a big issue in my marriage.
I have three of my six cards paid off, and I will finally be caught up on my car payment next month.
I was FIVE MONTHS behind on my car payment.

It's amazing how much more in control I am of my finances and it feels so good.
As a stay at home mom I always had that feeling that I had to ask for money because I was never put on the bank account.
I always felt guilty for wanting something for myself because I felt I hadn't earned it.

I have earned every part of this though.

Today I celebrate my freedom, my endurance, my perseverance.

"I am thankful for my struggle, because without it I would not have stumbled across my strength."

-Unknown Author

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