Not Another Single Mom Blog!

Ever since I was young my mom has always been my best friend. Never pushing but always supporting me in my next adventure. Sunday morning I had to say goodbye. My mom has accepted a new job in Hailey, Idaho and for the first time ever is living in a state outside of Washington. I had to send my mom off like a kid going to college. Only she's not coming back. My mom is a badass. She went back to college at 40, and now at 50 is starting off on a new adventure. She has shown me so much strength in herself lately that it gives me the motivation to keep going. Sometimes things seem stagnant. Like I have goals, but some days I feel a plateau, even though I can see the horizon. I thought I would be much more emotional. But through CoDA I have learned that I'm OK with being alone. Despite fighting my fear of abandonment I know the people who love me will always be there, whether it's near or far that doesn't change their love for me. And not everyone who leaves is leavin...

Two days before New Years Eve, I finished packing the remainder of my belongings from my old house that I shared with my now ex-husband. My boyfriend was there every step of the way to help packing things up and unload them into my storage unit here in town. I had a lot of built up anxiety about the situation because I felt like it was going to be a very emotional event. The only time I almost cried was because of the way my kids' belongings were treated. There was a shed with sort of a bay attached, and all of mine and the kids' belongings were out there. Some things had dirt and dust layer upon layer on them, other things like some inherited items from my late great-grandmother had mildew from sitting out in the weather. I wonder what it's like to be the kind of person who can just throw anything away without even thinking twice about it. I think to myself that this couldn't have been the man I married, but I realize that he hasn't changed a bit. I re...