Not Another Single Mom Blog!

One of my divorce bucket list items was to start school. In fact, one of the very first things I did when my ex husband left me was go to my local community college and look at getting an accounting degree. He and I had discussed me going back to school while we were together, several times, but I never pulled the trigger. The only thing keeping me going right after we split was for me to do all of the things I wanted to do with him, without him. At the time I had to prioritize and go into survival mode. As you all know my credit took a huge hit, my car was almost repossessed; my situation seemed futile. But I put my head in the game and took the first job I got an offer for. I decided school could wait until I had more stability. It's now been over a year since the split. He's remarried, my first relationship post-divorce has come and gone. I decided it's time to start school again. I need to do better for myself, and for my kids. I need a future to look forward t...

The last few months have been haywire. A lot happened all at once and I've been trying to find a balance again. My mom moved away, I moved into my apartment, my then boyfriend deployed, I switched medications, and I went on a new birth control. My hormones were out of control, and my moods were horrid. My mom has since moved back, I'm finding a new level of independence, especially since my boyfriend broke up with me, I switched back to my old meds, and came off the birth control. I'm still leveling out, but I went a bit off the deep end. Nothing is harder than trying to still be a loving mom while you're battling your darkest demons. My breakup was again unforeseen and took a toll on me. I was triggered, hard. I had an anxiety attack and it scared the shit out of me. I knew something needed to change. This is what I was afraid of happening, when I went on birth control. I hadn't been on birth control in three years, since before I had Summer. I was ...